Hey y’all, quite some time it has been-way too long in my opinion. Oh, how I’ve lived life. In this past month and then some, I have been experiencing, learning, growing, and preparing myself for the next chapter of my life. It’s quite weird seeing some of your closest colleagues already moving in and starting summer sessions at their universities. It’s weirder when your freedoms are suddenly expanded and you’re given the responsibility to make bigger decisions, and now you’re picking out dorm essentials and scheduling your own college orientation. But I’m getting ahead of myself.
The ending of May consisted of my high school graduation, which honestly didn’t hit me as hard as I thought it would. I sensed deep down that I was ready for it to be over. High school was never my thing, so I considered that the moment I was freed from an experience that caused a lot of trouble in my life.
Soon after, I was on a plane for my family vacation to the Western US. There, I experienced canyons and mountains in the span of days-truly a shock for a Florida gal like me! I’m wanting to do a more in-depth post about my traveling experience, so be sure to be on the lookout for a photo album’s worth of info soon! Unfortunately the trip had to be cut short due to a family medical scare, but the time we got out of those seven days were truly magical for my family.
I started up a bible study that my good friend Alonah and a couple other girls decided on every Monday. It’s Living Free by Beth Moore, and it’s truly one of the things holding me together in my faith. The fact that it seems so personal and easy to navigate makes me eager to come back to it, and it’s bode quite the response from the other people I pour its advice into.
I’ve started doing a lot of college related things-book my orientation date, picking out bedspreads, furniture, coordinating aesthetics with my roommate. It’s truly getting me excited for college and the prospect of figuring out my independence.
I’ve become more acquainted with fear-of the unknown, leaving my past behind, entering a new normal in my life- but I do know that with change comes growth, that I’ve desperately craved for years on end. Past Emma is dying to be where I am right now, and I intend on doing her justice.
Currently-just going with the flow. I’m working more hours at my job and spending as much time with the people I care about as I can. Enjoying the final months living at home, soaking in what and who I know well. Any emotion felt is okay. Overall, just being. Simultaneously pouring out and being filled day in and day out. Excited for what’s to come.
Thank you for listening (or reading, more-so) my 11 o’clock ramblings. There will definitely be more content to come, there’s so much I need to say:)